Day 6
So there has been a delay i will be coming back sunday for good!! hhahaa They not leaving yet :[ lol but soon i will be back and better i promise. I lost another 2 followers. All them added up made 100 that i lost. haha :/ Maybe i am a little pissed but hell. Weed will make it better. haha
Day 5; i believe. to lazy to find out.
So today was perfect, i was able to drop upward bound to focus on getting a job and my grades. I am having a turn-around!! I might be getting with my ex girlfriend and make us officially stronger. I may have lost E, well her name is Evelyn. Our friendship seems so shaky. I miss everything. Other then that today was sweet. I went to Zumies, got some vans and new head phones and socks. I was chilling with some 16-21 year old’s at Zumies. they were playing skate in their. They were so cool to bad i will never be able to hang with them. They were like into the same shit as me. Made me feel normal. I also was jealous of the fucking gauges they had. Hahaha Well also good news is tomorrow i will finally get to remake everything!! They are leaving my house and i will come back better. Sadly i lost 3 followers last night :[ But i will redeem myself i swear.
Day 4
So today has been weird. I got busted for smoking weed but my mom didn’t do anything. Just flushed it. I told her i was using it to relieve stress. So now i might need to “talk” to her more. So i am finally getting caught up in school, so i am happy about that. And i am also glad because someone took a good picture of me. Now i am just waiting for it to go on facebook. lol So i lost 2 followers, i learned to not care for them because they suck. I have started to make like these song/feelings that just help me vent how i feel. They will be burned later though. LOL So by next week the people should be gone and i will sorta “remake”. Not like deleting but change up my style. Like my theme and then unfollow people and then follow great blogs, then start to post things and reblog shit. lol I won’t like change the things i blog, but i will be blogging even more stuff. I am sorry for being a shitty blog at the moment and just posting my days and stuff. But back to my day. So today i was waiting to hug this girl, but she was a no show but because i waited some girl i never saw complimented on my dance Gavin dance shirt!! :3 lol Well the rest of my day was blah, so I’m gonna end this post now. Bye bye!!
Day 3: bleh
So I decided to turn my tumblr into my own personal blog type thing. Like i will be posting my moods and stuff that is happening in my life. This will go on until i have the time to really post things. So today i was at my counselor and i decided to fix everything in my life. He is helping me gather my thoughts and turn out the way i want to be. He is helping me get through all this drama and stress that has been building up over the past few months. So i am managing! :D Well last night i couldn’t sleep and i got this note book and i have been writing down my thoughts on songs and stuff related. I have started making a song just because the idea’s were flowing in my head last night instead of sleep. v.v It’s very weird. But so far i am having an amazing recovery :] I want to thank the peopel who have left me messages and kept following me even though i have not been blogging anything really. So thank you! :]
Day 2
So i decided to post how my days are going. So today i woke up early to go to the wake. I couldn’t stop crying. I am gonna miss her so much. Today was also the day i was suppose to go and patch things up with Sandi but she bailed on me because she was sick. I am still very stressed out but luckily my grandpa made me some of his famous cake<33 t made my day for the most part. I wasn’t able to do my homework so now i am terribly sick to go to school. My teachers are going to rip me apart and make me want to cry. I have been very unstable when i am at school. I can feel the drama in the air between P,W,and E. I just want this to end. So back to my day. I basically went to the wake, then stayed home writing down everything i could think of. I made 4 letters that i want to send but i am to scared to send them. Then i ate supper and now i am right here writing this. For my followers that are caring about me thank you so much. You are making me feel good with the messages. Sadly i am not in a replying mood. So i will start replying to them later. :]
This is my life right now.
So as you guys know i have not been on tumblr. I lost 45 followers.So the reason is that one of my family member has died and i have people staying with us because they are from long distances. I have not been able to get on because of there kids. Also some school drama has been happening. So this girl E dated this kid P a year ago, they broke up and this chick W is dating P. He took her virginity and then broke up. They she told him she might pregnant (she is not but she could have been) So then she told E that he was a jerk and she does not believe her. She thinks she is just a whore because at her old school she would give head to people she dated. So the two chicks hate each other while W hates P and E still likes P even after all of this. I am friends with them all so i am caught up in this and its so stressful when they dis each other. On top of this my girlfriend well ex is like having major depression and was suicidal for a bit because of the pills she was taken. I can’t do nothing and its taring me apart because i love her so much and i can’t help. She moved so she is 30 minutes away and i have no transportation! I am going insane and stress is building up. I have gone to the counselor 4 times this past week. I just am going through a lot and i feel the need to tell everyone because i am losing some of my most favorite followers and it annoys me because i can’t really post anything. My grades are slipping to all of this and i am losing all my friends. I really just want my life to be in order right now. But there. This is all that is happening.
Wow!! I was in the hospital for two days with a friend, and you fuckers unfollwed me.
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